CONTINUED>>>>
After that day i lost my faith,confidence,esteem,everything.
I lost the will to carry on,i lost the ability to think big and expect good things.
I felt that i would never again have expectations of having good things,i was not going to aim for the sky anymore.
I had rebuilt myself till i was at the peak and things were going good for me.
Till i fell all the way from the top,i was broken inside out.
I thought to myself
"i have no more strength left to pick myself up anymore for i have done so so many times in just a short period of time."
I was tired,dead heart in a dead world.
I was telling some of my friends that im a dead heart in a dead world.
I gave all i've got and i have nothing left within me to go forth.
I no longer believed in anything anymore.
I have given up totally.
That was how it was.
SO THE QUESTION NOW IS THIS>
How could a person that broken,dead and lost all his strength etc and still managed to pick himself up and live again?
And if i can do it so can any of you.Simple as that.Read on>>>
Dinah and timothy was there for me when i was broken,and i broke down a few times.
It was just horrible.Its thanks to them too that im who im today.
Then i left the job.
A good friend,Chan told me that i shouldn't try to reach for sky that i should be grounded.
He is a wise guy and he said that he have seem many people and he knows about things and that he asked me for my birthday before and he could tell that i wasn't meant to make it big that i can only live my life roughing it out as a commoner.
Hearing that kept me grounded but it killed me as to hear something like that and i started to believe so too.
I know he meant well.
My friend Daniel,introduced me to watch bleach an anime.
And so i watched and i also watched naruto.
Naruto inspired me a great deal and it strengthen me during that dark period.
Naruto has a never say die attitude and so he never backs out and give up no matter how badly beaten he was.
It touched me and i then adopted his attitude.
And he also strongly believes in himself that he will make it big.
His fighting spirit sparked the fire to burn within me again.
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I received a letter from ite stating that it is the last open registration for some courses.
I looked through and thought no way am i goign to ite.
I never went to ite after my o levels because its the last of the worst,theres no way i was going to enter ite.
It will be like backtracking because my o levels qualification is higher than a ite cert.
Then soon after some time,i decided to give it a try anyway since im left with nothing to lose.
The only course i was interested was digital audio and video production because of that one word-digital audio.HAhahaha.
I wanted the class at ite simei but no more vacancy,damn what a kick in the middle region.
It was only available at ang mo kio,and i was resentful as ite amk is one of the worst ite.HAHAHA.Don't listen to the crap about go west,go to ang mo kio thats bull....hahah ok moving on...
And so i interviewed for it and got through.
It was bitter sweet.You can guess why.
TO BE CONTINUED AGAIN>>>....
AND oh one more thing,thanks to all who are reading and have been reading.
Happy now LIjuan?hahah.
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