Just an outlet

Its only a little step,one small slip
and you won't even notice
its a traffic,comes and goes
everything goes on,carries on
without you

it all began with good intend
but the truth cant be undone
somewhere along the way got caught up
in all that there is to offer

this blinds i cant remove
comes undone,it becomes clear again
why does something so beautiful turn
into something so wrong

i believe i cant believe anymore
when its all said n done
how foolish could i be,time reveals always

Dedication

But I SURVIVED...
To stubborn to succumb to the drippin jaws of the DOMINANT PARADIGM...

I speak out of turn
I taugh myself everything that I ever needed to learn,which is:I don't have to be anything.. BUT ME
Napalm bright,celebrating the burn..

See,I'm supposed to be weak and depleted,my uniqueness,erased and deleted
I'm supposed to be a fist and a bruise,nothing left inside and nothing left to lose

They want me to be a breeder
Not a thinker
Not a leader
A sermonless disciple to a desperate,demented preacher
NO VOICE!NO CHOICE!

...but I WILL FAIL THEM!!
I have no need for their acceptance,their limits,their lies
I learned to hate from YOU!
I am your most BELOVED.. BLASPHEMOUS.. CHILD..."

VIDEOS

Here are some videos on why im so against "money"



DO watch the rest of the videos in the series as well.

The blister exists

Money is power,power is money.
Money makes the world go around.
Money determines how happy you are going to be.

BUT

what if you will to die right now?Would all the money in the world still matter?
Yes we need money for survival but its seems that people seem to be blinded to the bigger picture of it all.Money is not what we need to survive,it is rather created to control us to keep us chasing our tails endlessly till we die.It became that we need money for survival because we chosen it to be that way and it will always be because we are not ready for change.

Teach a man to fish and he can feed himself for a life time,give him a fish and it will only last him that much.OR rather teach him to fish so he can continue to fish for his own survival ignoring whatever else you do.Teach him to fish while you hunt for bigger meatier animals.Teach him to fish to give him the illusion that he have power and control over his life but in fact you have taught him to be span around in his own web while you work on bigger things behind his back to keep him out of your business.


Thats what is happening to us all.Do u know that,do u feel that,sense that?
Ofcoz you don't thats we will always be where we are.We think that we are progressing but truth of the matter is that we are going backwards.Failure to realise that is success to the very people in power.

FUCK IT ALL,FUCK THIS WORLD,FUCK EVERYTHING

THese lyrics from slipknot expresses what i feel.



Come on down
and see the idiot right here
too fucked up and I am not afraid to care

I feel like I'm wounded
and I got a fucking gun against my head
you live when I'm dead

so you feel it, kick it, see it, feel it, eat it, beat it out
so I can spit in his face
I wanna leave without a trace
get out, I don't want to die in this place

It never stops
you can't blame everything on everyone
I got changed and I'm sittin on the side of satan
what do you want from me?
You never told me what I was meant to be
now over to it, don't tell me to feel it
stop your bitchin'
and fight your way through it
I'm not like you
I just fuck up


People=shit
(what you gonna do)
(I'm not afraid of you)
(I'm everything, I'm not a pain)

You're dead to my eye !!

You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING


Fuck it all! Fuck this world!
Fuck everything that you stand for!
Don't belong! Don't exist!
Don't give a shit!
Don't ever judge me!


Everybody's so infatuated
Everybody's so completely sure of what we are
Everybody defamates from miles away
But face to face, they haven't got a thing to say
I bleed for this and I bleed for you
Still you look in my face like I'm sombody new
TOY - Nobody wants anything I've got
Which if fine becuase you're made of
Everything - I'm - NOT!
All the money in the world can't buy me.
GO AHEAD. LIE TO ME.
Tell me again how you're tortured
I wanna know how you followed your orders so well
You're full of SHIT
You had a dream but this ain't it.


All the money in the world can't buy me.
GO AHEAD. LIE TO ME.
Tell me again how you're tortured
I wanna know how you followed your orders so well
You're full of SHIT
You had a dream but this ain't it.


Noises, noises, people make noises
people make noises when they're sick
Nothing to do except hold on to NOTHING

How does it feel to be locked inside another dream
That never had a chance of being realized?
What the fuck are you lookin' at?
I'll tell you what you're lookin' at
Everyone you ever fuckin' laughed at


Look in my eyes for the answers - typical
I can feel it underneath like a miracle
Everybody in the world needs more than
Lies and consequences to poser them
Once again, it's me and no one else
I can't remember if there was a someone else
It's not mine, it's not fair, it's outta my hands
And it's shaking - you'll never take me

(HATE) Hate ain't enough to describe me
(SCREAM) Somewhere between screaming and crying
I'm not supposed to be here
I'm not supoosed to be


(WHY) When do I get to know why?
(BITTER) Bitter as the stink of when I try

Insane - Am I the only muthafucker with a brain?
I'm hearing voices but all they do is complain
How many times have you wanted to kill
Everything and everyone - Say you'll do it but never will


It's all in your head
It's all in my head
It's all in your head

I tried - You lied to me for so long
Everywhere I go, there's a sense of it
Freak on my antics and give me a choice
Doesn't matter if I give a shit
It's shit that you gave me

The whole world is my enemy - and I'm a walking target
Two times the devil with all the significance
Dragged and raped for the love of a mob
I can't stay - because I can't be stopped
Eat motherfuckers alive who cross us
I know you're all tired of the same ol' bosses
Let me tell you how it's gonna be
I'm gonna kill anyone who steps up in front of me

Welcome to the same ol' fucking scam
Same ol' shit in a dead fad



My life was always shit
And I don't think I need this anymore

Now I'm not pretty and I'm not cool
But I'm fat and I'm ugly and proud - so fuck you
Standing out is the new pretension
Sreamline the (sic)ness, half-assed aggression
You gotta see it to believe it, we all got conned
All the mediocre sacred cows we spawne
Put your trust in the mission

Everything sucks and I can prove it
Everybody dies, shuffle on, remove it
Idividuals, indispensable
I'm the paradox deity vessel
...the other side holds no secret
But this side is done, I don't need it
Before you go, you should know you're breaking down
You'll be rotten by the time you're underground

As I close my eyes I feel it all slipping away
(I come toward you)
We all got left behind, we let it all slip away


Section off myself
Put a wall up/What the hell have I done
Keep the dog at bay
Survive by saving me!
Values and the game
Not a fuck-up - Not a part of your lie
I am one, I am all - I'm above and beyond!

Back off of the shit
Stand off or I'll spit
So soft, you forget
Your garbage in is garbage out
You don't give a shit
I won't play the fit
Get off, get on this
Your garbage in is garbage out



Section off myself
Put a wall up/What the hell have I done
Keep the dog at bay
Survive by saving me!
Values and the game
Not a fuck-up - Not a part of your lie
I am one, I am all - I'm above and beyond!

Back off of the shit
Stand off or I'll spit
So soft, you forget
Your garbage in is garbage out
You don't give a shit
I won't play the fit
Get off, get on this
Your garbage in is garbage out

Giving in to what has got me
Feeling claustrophobic, scarred
Severed me from all emotion
Life is just too fucking hard
Snap! Your face was all it took
Cuz this need ain't doin' me no good
Fall on my face, but can't you see?
This fucking life is killing me!

I'm in conniptions for the final act you came here for
The one derivative you manage is the one I abhor
I need a minute to elaborate for everyone the
Everyday bullshit things that you have done

Your impossible ego fuck is like a
Megalomaniacal tab on my tongue
You fuckin' touch me I will rip you apart
I'll reach in and take a bite out of that
Shit you call a heart...

Kill you - fuck you - i will never be you
Kill you - fuck you - i will never be you
I can't fuckin' take it anymore
A snap of the synapse
And now it's fuckin' war
Kill you - fuck you - i will never be you

Everywhere you look, it's like they know
Their fingerprints are hidden by CONTROL
This is where the line is drawn, see
YOU CAN'T TAKE MY SOUL AWAY FROM ME

What do you need to see? Ya feel the impact?
Gotta retract - everybody get back
What is this? It's like a big conspiracy
Fields of dejected morbid progeny
They always say that it's always our fault
But everything we say is taken with a grain of salt
Man, it's always the same, if we talk or complain
We only wanna upset the balance
How's it feel to be the New Abortioin?
The only generation to suffer extortion

What do you need to see? Ya feel the impact?
Gotta retract - everybody get back
What is this? It's like a big conspiracy
Fields of dejected morbid progeny
They always say that it's always our fault
But everything we say is taken with a grain of salt
Man, it's always the same, if we talk or complain
We only wanna upset the balance
How's it feel to be the New Abortioin?
The only generation to suffer extortion

I wont, be the inconsequential
I wont, be the wasted potential
I can make it, as severe as I can
Until you realize
Ill never take a chance
It isnt, just one side aversion
Weve dealt, with a manies diversion
And I wont, let the truth be perverted
I wont let another victim deserted

I don't wanna do this anymore
Everything's shit - everything's been taken
Forsaken - gotta start it over cuz I'm hearing it
Backwards - DON'T make sense - DON'T feel better
Who's better? It's not that simple
You gotta figure it out before you make things difficult
It's not a word, it's a problem, the problem was easy
Draw your conclusions - solutions?
Anybody else wanna run?
Contorting, distorting - I am undone
One less propaganda nightmare fixture
Are you getting the picture?

Business as usual

Power corrupts,absolute power corrupts absolutely everything.

Knowing the origin of money and what it represents means that man are somehow doom to corruption.

A once passionate man is no longer so and driven only by profits and joined the ranks of the march of the pigs.He might be all loving and passionate last time but clearly he has succumbed to the temptation of his own ugly side.


Im not being myself and i know i won't be staying around for long.see how it goes.Im a person who likes to say it as it is when i can and i hate to hide things and to tell white lies in the name of profits.
Self righteous maybe but this is my stand.
Im not sales man quality and never will be and i will never allow myself to be so as i will lose the only thing i have in the world for the rest of my life and that is myself.

Truly the business world is infested with such disease and parasites that is sad.
"Reality" is as such,and everyone is accepting it.

Money the solution?

I heard of this teaching.There are 2 kinds of problems.
1)Problems money can solve
2)Problems money cannot solve.

He goes on to mention that if you have money what are the problems that can be solved?
If money cannot cannot solve it then no point bothering over it anyway as it only drains you.
Well it is true what he said but theres one point most people don't see including him.
Money-well money is the problem.A monetary system such as what we have now is the problem to our continued evolution on earth.Because money is simply debt and so everyone,thats right that goes the same for me,we are all in debt.

To understand what the bush im talking about regarding the monetary system and about money pls watch the zeitgeist video,part 1 and 2.

Venom and fire

Before you carry on reading,be warned that the language used is explicit.Things are better expressed using those words.Im no longer going to pretend like the " nice guy" people used to see me to be.If you are offended in any ways,im not apologising for it.All i can say is Don't judge but be curious.


We are in the rat race,majority of us go through the stupid education system to breed us to be a better slave to serve the higher powers.We come out from school to work for a living,truth is who are we really working for?All our efforts are nothing but means to provide entertainment to those bastards.We are nothing but tools to them,a brick in the wall to support them and their lifestyles.Is it all worth dying for?then its time for all of us to fucking wake the fuck up.We are brought up thinking that things are going fine as long as we go through the education system,go out to work and upgrade yourself to get better pay,have a happy family and live happily ever after.Nothing is more further than the truth.
We keep trying to climb the corporate ladder and we step on others in order to get there.Its a dog eat dog world,survival of the fittest,eat or be eaten,blah blah blah.Familiar?Thats what i call a sick sick society thanks to the very systems we are brought up in.All thanks to the systems based on monetary.We became such selfish sons of bitches that we go around gossiping,spreading rumors and backstabbing each other blah blah blah.We then bury ourselves in all these senseless materialism.
Then you know what,we go to church and pray for forgiveness then we go back to our daily routine of killing each other.What the fuck is up with such shit?Who are you trying to kid,what are you proving?
What You religious fanatics doing are nothing but bringing shame to your various religions and separating each other.Till we wake up to realise just how fucked up our mindsets are the better the world will be.
The world won't be better from us praying.Nothing will change if we don't make the change ourselves."GOD" will never come down to save us,you know why?Because we are not even saving ourselves.All we ever did since the dawn of our existence is killing each other and polluting the earth with our very corrupted existence and now everything is coming back to us ten fold.
Stop all the the bullshit of senseless thoughts of racial pride and my "GOD" is the real deal your "GOD" is fake thing.
What we need is to come together as one and work collectively to achieve greater heights and poverty will be solved,etc.

CALL TO ARMS

With lyrics from nasum


Attempting to win
it's a race without a finish line
they're all relay runners
and you're left behind


tell me where these shadows came from
what clouded our reality?
was it too easy.or was it just the pain?
was it all enough for you to bring us to the end?

qualified to measure my own misery
i cannot believe there is nothing left for me
tell me why i even bother,tell me why i sit and cry
you said every word so clear yet i sit here wonder why

Dying fetus

Lyrics from the band dying fetus about our society and the government.

Mass media sublimation,tearing our defenses down
feeding us shit as we beg for more
one's not enough we need ten more,consume,digest,destroy,discard.

looking on in disbelief as our resources burn
this is our legacy ,a crime against humanity
to feed our lives everything must die

from the moment we are born,until our days are dying
we're violated,crucified,and burned upon the corporate cross
a disposable economy,built on waste and tragedy.
we eat the fast food of indifference,and suffocate as one.

Coerced by our campaign,it demands our surrender
we're dying slowly,for the pleasure of this machine.
just cover up as these bastards gag on their riches.



Who does the earth belong to?the human termites spreading lies
the people have to make a decision but they're too busy dying to try and realize
who controls their future the money flows above their heads
all around we have the chance to change the world,believe in us
bred to buy,not to think,tell more lies,make them weak
just like rats they will multiply,and run with the pack without ever seeing

WAKE UP!!!

Now the balance is set.we're changing foot from left to right
eager and with false hope we gave them our trust.
speech on speech,lies on top of lies.empty promises.
the guys r having such a blast...
but nothing's changed,it is just a different set of lies
millions of humans lives to sacrifice
they were born to die now they r dead at last
a profit made from death
thses huge organisations harvest lives.
the multinational
the unstoppable,unscrupulous,dead
born n raised by your rules,still i disappointed u
but i've always done my best and it's never
good enough for u
today we die,today we testify
all we do must come to an end
this is the end
your senseless thoughts of racial pride
in the world where we live,we;re nothing but pawns
a tool of their trade,a brick in the wall
nothing but pawns
we r nothing-only tools
disposable and easy to get
we got fucked we r such fools
we saw the hook n swallowed the bait.
they fool us,seduce us,buy us,use us,defuse us,smash us,kill us,trash us
they dont give a shit as long profits r high
they dont give a shit if people die
we r just destroying ourselves,all this makes us fucking blind
or r we too scared to see?
jews killing muslims,and christians killing jews
the circle is unending and all sides always lose
the world is false constructed just to satisfy their needs
if we keep obeying we r like lambs to the slaughter for the feast
there was a time when the weak would suffer,the ones in power
would crush all who dissent just look around
nothing's changed
no longer kings.they wear a suit n tie
those who survive,have no conviction just follow trends
until they're "born again"

Zeitgeist

Watch this movie>http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-594683847743189197

Watch it for yourself and think n judge.You have a mind of your own so now its time to think and not be led like they want you to be.

Some of these things mentioned in the movie are things which i already knew about in the past so its a great refresher as i m just a human and i got caught up in "life" and forgot about it.

All these years the things which i know about and still learning continues to amaze me and enlighten me of why we are truly here for.
It fires me up again after watching the movie,reminding me again why i don't want to live my life like the rest are doing so.


Is it truly reality or is it what we constantly tell ourselves and thus making it a reality for ourselves.We created it,we made it and we are enslaved by the very thing we create.We are so blinded by our own "life" that we walk this earth polluting it with what we do and seek for "help" from an invisible "GOD".
We are given everything we ever needed yet we have been blinded by the "powers" controlling us to not use n learn what we have-Ourselves.

SO many people ask the question.
What is the meaning of life?whats the purpose?
The answer is look no further than yourself and you will find the answer to life.

We are trapped in a cage by the "system",constantly being pressed down to never really think for ourselves.
Look at the education system,study hard and work hard to get a good paying job to "live".Question is are you truly "living"?

How many times have u heard this before?
Its very real,you have no choice,you don't always get what you want,thats life,you have to be realistic,money makes the world go around,you want to live u need money,blah blah blah.
Seems all too familiar thats because thats what we keep on telling ourselves and to others.
No wonder so many people are unhappy in this world.Working in a job you don't like to bring bread to the table?You have no choice?Lifes like that?Have to accept that?
Now there is no greater bullshit than that.
We always have a choice!Its because we believe that we don't thats why we are constantly giving "power" to those who controls us.
They succeeded and if we all still choose to be ignorant and not wake up from this messed up world then we will always be slaves of ourselves.


We are living in a world of lies and if you choose to not think critically for yourself then you will always be lied to.
Are we really too blind to see or are we just ignorant and too scared to see?
Why are we fooling ourselves?Who are we fooling?
We are always afraid of things we are not sure of,so we make fun of it and put it down.
I knew we are in a screwed up world but i had no idea on just how screwed up till i watched the movie.
Divide and conquer is what they do and they succeeded.
Seriously if we choose not to "know" then we will always be controlled and led on like lambs.

We are being controlled by what we are working for-money.
Thats just such a sad thing to say.We can never seem to escape from that.

Food for thought

If you blindly followed your intuitions and inklings,would your life be a lot better than it is today?
Even with all the mistakes you would have made because you misread a feeling or intuitive thought.I think that for most people the answer is yes.
Because no matter how rationale or dispassionate you may strive to be,you can never be 100% accurate anyway.And even if you could,your life would become stale,boring,and unfulfilled.


We live in the present only-but the choice you make in your present absolutely affect your future.

Our focus on just getting through each day in order to pay the bills at the end of the month,prevents us from lifting the veil to discover who we really are-and even more importantly,who we're capable of being.

My decision to leave_ _ is one of my most proudest decision.
I know that my destiny lay in a different path-and that it was now time for me to stick my head above the parapet.

Its takes lots of courage,determination,etc to go through with such a decision but im glad i made it anyway.My only regret is that i didn't listen to myself n left earlier and understand and see things so much more.Well better late than never.

Are you living your life according to your soul's call-or are you wasting precious time trying to live according to what your friends,family,colleagues or society dictates?

We tend to value a sense of control over our lives-and for most of us 'control' equals 'comfort zone'
What would you do in life if your knew that failure simply wasn't a possibility.

Fear makes us hang on to what we've got.
It's as though we're not sure enough of ourselves to believe that there really could be something better out there for us.


The best decisions aren't always the ones that everyone tells you are logical.

Do you want life to be exciting and colourful or "correct" and colourless?

Dusting off your dreams

From this point forth,are you going to live by fear or by faith?

It is like being a trapeze performer who had to let go of one set of rungs to be in position to grab another.It is all or nothing.

Fear is the best excuse in the world to not pursue your dreams-most people use it quite effectively.

A dream that gets you fired up about possibilities,quickens your pulse,and strikes a little fear in your guts is worth going after.

When you know where your real aspiration lies and you act on it with everything your've got,you gain a deep inner satisfaction that lasts day after day.Indeed ,your dream is the expression of your individual pursuit of happiness.

There are those who never go after a big dream because they believe it must make them money.

Happy and comfortable generally beats rich and miserable.When you do something mainly for the money,you are likely to be disappointed with the results.

Stop associating with strivers

People who strive can be fun to be with.For a while,anyway.But because they are so single minded,hanging out with strivers will drain your energy,usually.

Why?Well,strivers need lots of encouragement and energy from others to keep up their pace.And their views of success tend to be one-dimensional.

Instead of spending time with folks who are always seeking to succeed ,find people who are happy with themselves and involved in creative endeavors that express their values.

Thomas j.leonard


SO very true about this.

FIRST IN SINGAPORE

HELL YEAH im the first in singapore to own the roland td-4 electronic drum set.
Gosh im so in love with it.After 1 year of absence of my baby i now finally have a new baby woooohooooo.My 4th baby!!!!!!


Unboxing the drum set was damn satisfying,the quality of the entire set is top notch.
I freaking paid a hell lot for it n its worth every cent of it.It look so awesome n so damn fine and sweet,wooo n the sound is just amazing,amazing,and amazing.What a huge different compared to my previous baby the yamaha dtxpress 3.

Geshhh forgot one thing u guys have no idea what im talking about since its about drums.haha.

I have not being drumming for so damn long already and my skills are rusting.
I will be practicing hard n record videos to post on youtube.WOOOHOOOO.

WIll be posting pics soon.

Onward advancing

OK so things that i have planned for myself to do n accomplish this year won't be happening.

I actually expected that things might turn out this way,hmm if u read the previous post then i might have actually manifested it because i expected it .

Circumstances are stopping me from doing n moving on with my plans but i know its in my decision not the circumstances which decides my fate.So im finding ways n means to get back on track.Well in life u dont usually get what u want,maybe its as such n maybe its becoz u hear people saying that n it becomes your reality because u expected that.

If u know about the secret etc n read other stuffs n see how your life n others have been then u know what i mean.

All this is very interesting.

I know one thing.Im like a super saiyan(if u know about dragonball z then u know what it is).No matter how hard n many times i fall i will always get back up n stronger than b4 n i will never stop believing.

Become what u believe

Our thoughts and expectations wield tremendous power and influence in our lives. We don’t always get what we deserve in life, but we usually get no more than we expect; we receive what we believe. Unfortunately, this principle works as strongly in the negative as it does in the positive.
Nick was a big, strong, tough man who worked in the railroad yards for many years. He was one of his company’s best employees, always there on time, a reliable, hard worker who got along well with the other employees. But Nick had one major problem. His attitude was chronically negative. He was known around the railroad yards as the most pessimistic man on the job. He perpetually feared the worst and constantly worried, fretting that something bad might happen.
One summer day, the crews were told that they could go home an hour early in order to celebrate the birthday of one of the foremen. All the workers left, but somehow Nick accidentally locked himself in a refrigerated boxcar that had been brought into the yard for maintenance. The boxcar was empty and not connected to any of the trains.
When Nick realized that he was locked inside the refrigerated boxcar. He panicked. Nick began beating on the doors so hard that his arms and fists become bloody. He screamed and screamed, but his coworkers had already gone home to get ready for the party. Nobody could hear Nick’s desperate calls for help. Again and again he called out, until finally his voice was a raspy whisper.
Aware that he was in a refrigerated boxcar, Nick guessed that the temperature in the unit was well below freezing, maybe as low as five or ten degrees Fahrenheit. Nick feared the worst. He thought, What am I going to do? If I don’t get out of here, I’m going to freeze to death. There’s no way I can stay here all night. The more he thought about his circumstances, the colder he became. With the door shut tightly, and no apparent way of escape, he sat down to await his inevitable death by freezing or suffocation, whichever come first.
To pass the time, he decided to chronicle his demise. He found a pen in his shirt pocket and noticed an old piece of cardboard in the corner of the car. Shivering almost uncontrollably, he scribbled a message to his family. In it Nick noted his dire prospects: “Getting so cold, body numb. If I don’t get out soon, these will probably be my last words.”
And they were.
The next morning, when the crews came to work, they opened the boxcar and found Nick’s body crumpled over in the corner. When the autopsy was completed, it revealed that Nick had indeed frozen to death.
Now, here’s a fascinating enigma: The investigators discovered that the refrigeration unit for the car in which Nick had been trapped was not even on! In fact, it had been out of order for some time and was not functioning at the time of the man’s death! The temperature in the car that night—the night Nick froze to death—was sixty-one degrees. Nick froze to death in slightly less than normal room temperatures because he believed that he was in a freezing boxcar. He expected to die! He was convinced that he didn’t have a chance. He expected the worst! He saw himself as doomed with no way out. He lost the battle in his own mind.
For Nick, the thing he feared and expected to happen come to pass. The old adage “Life is a self-fulfilling prophecy” held true for him. It will usually be true in your life as well. Many people today are similar to Nick. They’re always expecting the worst. They expect defeat. They expect failure. They expect tough process in reaching their dreams. They expect mediocrity. And they usually get what they expect ; they become what they believe.. Expect bad thing = receive bad thing as you believe, Expect good thing and you will receive it! Become what you believe! Tell yourself that something good is gonna happen to you today, and through the day, you should have attitude of expectancy. Expect God’s favor at work, expect supernatural opportunity, expect people to like you, expect to have productive day, expect to live abundant live, expect to raise any higher. His goodness and mercy will follow you..
(Your Best Life Now, by Joel Osteen)

Im a mastermind

Took a personality test.


Results
Your answers suggest you are a Mastermind

The four aspects that make up this personality type are:
Planner, Ideas, Heads and Introvert
Summary of Masterminds

* Visionaries who put energy into achieving their goals
* Prefer to work independently and dislike inefficiency
* Think of themselves as logical, thorough, and bright
* Values practicality and common sense above ideas and theories

More about Masterminds

Masterminds create a vision for the future by gathering and organising information. They then develop strategies to achieve their goals. They have a rare gift for looking at almost anything and seeing how it can be improved. These skills and the Masterminds' high standards often allow them to reach leadership positions at work.

Mastermind is the least common personality type in the UK, according to a nationwide survey.

Masterminds value independence and prefer to work on their own. Once they have decided on a course of action, Masterminds rarely change their minds, although they can be persuaded by clear reasoning by someone they respect.

In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Masterminds may cut themselves off from a group and criticize people who don't understand their plans. Under extreme stress, Masterminds may overindulge in sensory experiences like eating, shopping or watching television.

Masterminds often have an unusual sense of humour, which arises from their ability to spot surprising links between seemingly unconnected facts.
Mastermind Careers

Masterminds are drawn to jobs requiring logical analysis or abstract thinking common in science or technical fields.

Staind

I guess it's all so strange
To feel the way I do inside but
Have so much that I could feel some
Pride for in my life so why is it that
I feel like this

How do I feel? I've been here before.
I've felt this.

I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
The thought is too much to conceive

I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
That my life became


I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
The silence get's us no where
Get's us no where way too fast



All the times that I felt like this won't end
It's for you
And I tasted what I could never have
It was from you
All the times that I've cried, my intentions, full of pride
But I waste more time than anyone


But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it



I know that I am really not here
To represent what I am not clear
About in my head sometimes

If someone else showed you the way
Would you take the wheel and steer?
It hurts me that you're not ashamed
Of what you're doing here
If they jumped off a bridge
Would you meet them on the ground?
Or would you try and claim
That it never made a sound


Everyone plays the hand they're dealt
And learns to walk through life themselves
Not everything in life is handed on a plate
When people think your words are true
It doesn't matter what you do
I sold my soul to get here
How 'bout you?

So you choose to force your hand
What a strange way to make freinds
And you always change the rules
So the drama never ends
And you blindly go through life
Judging only by it's worth

Chains off

Are you waiting for something
'cause there's a tension in the air
Of something unresolved
I can sense it in your heart
So step down
Look around
You could leave it all behind
Never hear another sound
Say you're holding onto something
We're just wasting time
We're taking up space
I swear it feels like this could die
I can see
To a degree
Say you're holding onto nothing
And it's showing all over your face


Where did you hide yourself
For these searchlights are growing dim
I know this isn't much to recollect
Better now to close this puppet show
And say that it's the end
Could you ready yourself
And hold on for a moment?

made you fall forever
With no end in sight
When everything around is broken
Could you say that this felt right?

You are, for contradiction's sake,
Everything I remember that I swore I'd forget
You life has served you well
But everyone around has perished
From this fire that you've lit

The end is the beginning is the end

This is the start of a new chapter in my life,it is the end of something and the start of another.
What i gained from the end will be brought forward to my new beginning.
Sacrifices had to be made no doubt but it is worth it.
Even as painful and unwanted as it may be but i had to do it.
It might be very selfish of me to do it but its what i want and theres no turning back.
To xiaoran i didn't mean to leave u behind as i did but i have to or i know i won;t have enough will to carry on my future journey.
It was a necessary evil,do or break thing.
You wont be able to understand now maybe next time u would.
To the rest of my organization who might be reading this.
No need to wonder what happened or what,if u do read this then good.
Im currently embarking on a new chapter,a chapter i was supposed to step into last year but i didn't.It was pushed aside,kept aside and maybe even escaped from but i know i have to face it someway somehow.
And so here im no turning back already now is really no back road left for me.It have to be so ,so that i will give in my all for it.
I'm going to do trading with my cousins and i have plans,big plans ahead to go for.
Nothing is finalized yet have to wait for my cousin to be back and we discuss further of our partnership in it.But whatever it is im still going to do trading.
Its a do or die,make or break.

Trash(korn)

The pain that I'm just erasing.
I tell my lies and I despise.
Every second I'm with you.
So I run away and you still stay.
So what the fuck is with you.

Your feelings I can't help but rape them.
I'm sorry I don't feel the same.
My heart inside is constantly hating.
I'm sorry I just throw you away.

I don't know why I'm so fucking cold?
I dont know why it hurts me.
Why do I have a conscience?
All it does is fuck with me.
Why do I have this torment?
All I want to do is fuck it away.