Is this it?

And as much as i have tried
to bury her from mind,
still sense her presence
so divine
see her face in
every natural feature.

A video of my precious dog,Betty

Here are the outtakes of my fav tree

My best work so far!!!

i love it so much,i really love that tree alot.THe shape of the tree is really awesome and it is isolated.The weather at that time was to my luck.This is taken near ite ang mo kio.The following pic is of the original printed photograph mounted onto a mounting board taken with my hp.

video of the scene at uob painting of the year competition

Some pics taken yesterday preparing for the photography competition

Here are snapshots of the pc lab 2

videos taken yesterday

Ansel playing n singing in the first vid,and mr .christian playing n singing in the next.

Betty wants to walk

Attack of the snapshots

Here are some snapshots taken with my sony ericsson k750i hp last time.Found them in my gallery so decided to post some here for your enjoyment.

Chris playing the piano at home

1 litre of tears

Everyone please go and watch the japanese drama 1 litre of tears,it is based on a true story of a 15 years old girl who suffered from a disease that slowly robs her of simple abilities such as walking and talking.

All too often we lose sight of what life really is and means,we try so hard to reach for the top and forgot whats just infront of us.We get caught in the rat race,a race to the top in society.This is very evident in singapore,how often do you slow down your pace of life and think?Why do we need things such as the doctor telling you that you have only a few months left to live then you will really start to live?Because we are only humans,we learn things best when we are met with misfortunes,etc.Why wait till then when it is too late?Why wait till you are retired and old then you start to enjoy the fruits of life?Society is a very sad thing today,we get caught up in ourselves and our own world,it became each to his/her own.Why did we ever become so selffish?What are we all trying to prove and accomplish?We became slaves to ourselves,mindless zombies just working day in and day out.It is nothing wrong in trying to earn a living so that you and your love ones can live comfortably,but in doing so we have already lose sight of that simple thing-just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing.We all know that we live in a world of irony and unfairness,so why make it worse?

Class bbq

There was way too much food at the bbq!!!hahaha.
Hails to the organiser for her efforts to make this bbq possible
This is my first time seeing a bbq with lucky draw at the end,quite interesting.
The second video was taken during the lucky draw.
1st prize-anthony(did i spell that right)
2nd prize-zahara(i was shocked to see her in tudong)
3rd prize-phyllis(nicole kidman fan,bet u wanted win nicole kidman.lol)

Final product

The media loves the latest tragic suicide
They exploit it,then package it and profit from the people who die
Look at the world ,look at the hell,look at the hate we've made
Look at the final product,the world in slow decay
i'm told that all your seeds are black
i've learned the question is unanswered and opaque

we're witnessing a famine of the innocent
Did they die for religion or government?
Because if your god won't do,their god will starve you

There are those that believe the world is ending again
that impending armageddon is inevitable and waiting


Nevermore

Born

Religion changed the face of man,thou shalt not kill,we are all gone
The seed of ignorance is born thous halt not think,thou shalt conform
The pigs order us to follow orders and obey
The flies drink the decayng nectar of their tortured effigy
If nothing in the world can change our children will inherit nothing


Nevermore

Cruelty to animals

Oh my God im so fuming mad when i watched these videos,oh there better be hell for people in the video!!!!!!!!!!!God are u seeing all these?!!!!
Lets put an end to all this madness!!!!
They are living things like us,they bleed red too when cut
so why the differances?!!!!!
Are we really greater than our animal counterparts?!!!
I heard from a christian before that God place men above animals
ok that might be true but does that justify the things we do?!!!!
Im sure God must be regretting his promise to men that he won't
flood the earth again and the sign of the rainbow is that promise.
Beware mankind,as God or motherearth is slowly taking its revenge on us all.
Earthquakes,tsunami,hurricanes,tornados,etc and now man killing man
how stupid can men get?
We are advancing but yet backwards.
When will all this madness stop?
There is no such thing as the devil or satan,the only evil is us all-mankind!!!

Flesh bodies crushed,tormented.
Mad,somewhat demented
demented with rage
cruelty is an irony
a stage for man
to play his hand in wickedness or wonder
flesh and blood cannot tolerate the kind of pain....endure
it seldom does
death is an all too familiar result


I just needed to unleash all my rage so im doing it here

Take a step into the silence

The following posts b4 this reflects what i feel and think.These are really harsh topics and i may scare some people especially religious people.So don't read if you are not open enough to accept anything else except what you want to hear.This is the side of me that many people don't see n hear from because i know most people are not open enough to talk about such topics and they will see me as being "satanic",which is another joke because most people have no real idea what a satanist is,they just think that satanists are devil worshippers which is wrong.So let me clear the air once and for all,no im not a satanist neither am i a devil worshipper.Though im baptised as a catholic im really not one at heart,im more of a free thinker.Why am i so,thats a long story and really difficult to explain too.Okay now some might think im against christianity then,no im not,im against the people in it.Many are just followers,following whats written in the bible and not have a mind of their own so what they do n think is just following they are no better than the devil worshippers in a way.Don't you think and feel that in that way many are hypocrites they are not genuine because whatever they do,think and say are just following of whatever was written.Its funny how christians are so ready to judge people when God is the only one who judges us.Sorry if all this offended any of you im just blogging my true self to people,because in order to really open myself up to people i have to be myself.What u see may not be what u get.

Over the past few hundred years we have seen both a growing disregard for the environment as well as a steady decrease in culture and heritage.

. I think the growing disregard for the environment, culture and heritage is a natural consequence of capitalism. When people care more about profit than the world they live in that is what happens. Capitalism in the "Western" world in turn is just a natural consequence of Christianity, because Christianity created a spiritual void when it ousted Paganism, and all that is left is materialism and a religion with no meaningful contents. The Christians often kept the Pagan festivals, rituals and symbols, but they no longer have any real meaning. For example; Yule, the winter solstice has become "the birthday of Christ", Easter has become "the day Jesus returned from the grave", summer solstice has become "Saint Hans' Day", Heimdallr has become "Santa Claus", and so forth. Originally Yule marks the turning of the Sun-wheel and is the day the dead visit the living, Easter is the first Sunday after the first full Moon after the vernal equinox and the day Baldr and his wife returns from Hell, the summer solstice marks the birth of Freyja, the goddess of love, and Heimdallr didn't only bring us gifts, but he was also our connecting link to the gods. He is after all the guardian of the (rainbow) bridge that leads to Heaven (Asgarðr)! All of this has been lost with Christianity, and without any contact with the spiritual reality and our divine origin, so to speak, we are left with only the base physical world. We no longer have any purpose in life, other than to wander randomly on Earth and become (physically) wealthy and live comfortable lives, and I don't think all that many men or women really find that very satisfying - save perhaps the extremely shallow and egoistic people.


This spiritual void has become an even bigger problem due to the fact that there are six billion people living on this planet, and almost all of them are doing their best to accumulate as much goods they can possibly get their filthy hands on. Also we see that the "Western" capitalists try to export their wealth and system to poorer countries. Not to help these countries, but to create a new market for their own goods. They basically just want more consumers.


This will be an even bigger catastrophe to the environment the moment China and India become wealthy, because our planet cannot take another 2.4 billion capitalist pigs driving polluting cars and buying essentially meaningless consumer goods all day long, seven days a week. We have problems enough with the I billion capitalist pigs we already have (mainly in the USA, Europe and Japan). And what will happen when the world population reaches 9 or even 10 billion and the majority are capitalist consumers?

Ironically, the only thing that can save mankind is a stream of pandemics, natural disasters and other human catastrophes, wiping out most of us. In fact, I think the catastrophe is inevitable - unless something drastic happens very soon, - and to be honest I even welcome it. The sooner this world order collapses the better. We don't even need to do anything for it to collapse in chaos. The best and only thing we can do is to get away from the tidal wave, and make sure the best amongst us survive, along with our Pagan culture. We can physically move away from the modern world and all its moral, physical, emotional, mental and spiritual decay and depravity.

To live like we are supposed to we need to listen to our blood, so to speak. Our Paganism is in our blood, and to be able to create a positive and meaningful civilization in the future, on the ruins of the "Sodom and Gomorrah" we live in today, we need to live in accordance with our blood.



Varg Vikernes

SKinned and endangered

Exploitation of everything,the torment of anything biological and physiological.What prevents us from actually reconsidering our way of life?Its always puzzled me why man saw himself as God of all things.Whoever put humanity in charge?This is nothing political or anything of the like,the bottom line is simply this:on what grounds can we justify the way we chose to take advantage of our envionment?


Zyklon

portrait shoot

heres a video taken today after lessons to rush our assignments to hand up.Gosh i hate my voice and the way i sound so i will try not to speak in my normal voice in upcoming videos.hehe.i will try the high pitched hong konger's accent as jannson seems to approve of it.hehehe.

Ansel's searches for his girl

These 2 videos are of Ansel searching for his crush and mr.john n mr.christian helped too.

heres today's videos

a make shift studio was set up in class n the assignment is to take 5 portraits shots of your friend.I appear in the 3rd video n i look really stupid n i made my voice really low cos i hate to hear my own voice its just weird.

just a stupid video of me walking my dog

videos taken yesterday

tengah farewell

a farewell video by cisco fandi.miss all the guys in tengah airbase.

here are 2 videos of our photography class

my bmc days

i retook my o levels last year at bmc n these r my friends.